Just complaining...and rambling.

I am not very good at this, mostly because I have no time. I never have a day off, literally. Going to school Monday through Thursday and working Friday through Sunday takes up all of my time. I don't have personal time let alone family time. This last week, I was able to spend one evening with my family. I barely make it til dinner time on Monday without falling asleep, Tuesday nights are for Cub Scouts, and I went to work Thursday night (I love going for 24 hours straight!) It is 1am on Sunday morning right now and I know the next family time we'll have will be on Wednesday. How sad is that? It'll be all I can do to stay awake through church then I'll go to bed as soon as I get home. I'll try to get an hour of sleep tomorrow morning when I get off work before going to school all day. I'll be a zombie during dinner and then I'll go right to bed. What a life. I know it isn't forever, just until June of 2010... We'll carve our pumpkins on Wednesday night for F.H.E. and save the seeds. They'll turn out too salty and there will be pumpkin all over the place, but I'll finally have time with them. <>

On a more positive note, I have really been trying to work on not being bummed out, or scared with our failing economy. Instead of thinking about all the negatives in my life, I go around thinking about all of the things I am grateful for. And I don't ask for anything else. Take the gas prices for instance. I am thankful that gas has gone down to $2.26. Do I wish it were $1.26? Sure I do. But I think to myself that I am thankful that it is $2.26, not $3.26 or $4.26. I am simply grateful for what I do have and don't worry about what I don't have. It's hard to explain, but it has made me a lot more peaceful with things. Do I wish I had more time with my family? Yes, but I am grateful that I have a job, a loving and helpful husband, and I am grateful that I am in nursing school working on a career that will take care of my family when construction jobs are slowing down. It seems like you can find more things to be grateful for when you think about it then to mope over one thing.